
Chapter 12.
We invite you to Faith and Riley’s wedding.
Buffy looked around the convention room Faith and Riley had hired out
for their wedding reception. The wedding had been beautiful on the
beach, late afternoon just as the sun was going down. The wedding
ceremony, in itself, was a private ceremony where Riley and Faith had
said their vows in front of family and friends.
Buffy was Faith’s maid of honor, with Willow and their cousin Tara as
her bridesmaids. Riley had no family, his father Adam had left when he
was only a child and his mother Maggie had passed away three years ago
in a freak lab accident.
Riley had been an only child and had no other siblings that he knew of,
so after spending time with all the guys he had asked Spike to be his
best man and Xander and Giles to be his groomsmen.
Now Buffy watched as they shared their first dance as a married couple.
She had never seen Faith this happy and to be honest, she had never
though Faith would ever settle down. Faith had always been a bit of a
wild child and after Faith’s father had abandoned her and her mother
when she was just seven for another women Faith had lived by a strict
rule to never let anyone get to close.
She had stuck by that rule until she met Riley. He was meant to be
simply another one night stand, but when she had given him the brush
off the next morning he had stood his ground and after a few weeks of
being around, his persistence had paid off. Faith admitted that she
wanted to be with him and they hadn’t looked back since.
They were both there for each other when each had lost their mother.
Buffy had worried that all the hurt and loss might tear them apart but
it only made their love stronger.
“May I have this dance?” she heard Spike whisper in her ear, she
couldn’t help but shiver at the feel of his hot breath on her neck. She
turned smiling up at him as he led her to the dance floor, now that the
first dance was over the dance floor was packed with happy couples
dancing lovingly in each other’s arms. Buffy and Spike joined the
couples wrapping their arms around one another, dancing slowly.
Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding
Fall into your sunlight
The future's open wide beyond believing
To know why hope dies
Losing what was found, a world so hollow
Suspended in a compromise
The silence of this sound is soon to follow
Somehow sundown
Buffy laid her head against Spike’s chest listening to the soft thump
thump of his heart, loving the feel of his arms around her body,
holding her close. It was moments like this that made it easy to forget
what they had put each other through, the pain, the betrayal on both
parts, but still Buffy loved him, wanting nothing more than to be with
him,
if only she thought
if only he felt the same way for her too.
And finding answers
Is forgetting all of the questions we called home
Passing the graves of the unknown
Spike inhaled deeply, he had missed that smell in their four years
apart, vanilla he had decided then and there that it was the best smell
in the world. He placed a gentle kiss on the top of her head; he wished
this was their wedding, that they were enjoying the first dance as a
married couple tonight. He was jealous of Faith and Riley, they were
where he wanted to be, if only Buffy would love him
if only he thought sadly.
As reason clouds my eyes, with splendor fading
Illusions of the sunlight
And the reflection of a lie will keep me waiting
Love gone for so long
They had gone through so much together, been so close for so long,
Buffy had missed him so much after she left. Every part of her wanted
to pick up the phone and call him but every time she went to dial the
number her heat would pound in her ears, her palms would sweet and she
would hang up
Coward! her mind would yell at her.
This day's ending is the proof of time killing all the faith I know
Knowing that faith is all I hold
Buffy looked up at his perfect blue eyes, she loved him so much and in that moment she wanted nothing more than to kiss him.
And I've lost who I am
And I can't understand
Why my heart is so broken
Rejecting your love
Without love gone wrong
Life
Less words
Carry on
She held back afraid to lose him, placing her head back over his heart
they continued to dance. Spike couldn’t be sure but when Buffy had
looked at him he had seen something different in her eyes, the same
thing he saw that night they made love.
But I know
All I know
Is that the ends beginning
Could it be that she felt something for him, anything other than pure
friendship or was he just dreaming? He really hoped not because when he
had looked into her green pools he had seen truth, love and now more
than anything he wanted to do something about it.
Who I am from the start
Take me home to my heart
Let me go
And I will run
I will not be silenced
Should he just kiss her? Hold her? Or just pretend that moment hadn’t
happened? Convince himself that what he saw in her eyes was simply the
affection one friend had for another? He was so confused but most of
all he was scared.
All this time spent in vain
Wasted years
Wasted gain
All is lost
Hope remains
And this war's not over
Scared he could ruin what they had spent months building a loyal and
loving friendship. Afraid of finding out she didn’t actually love him
the way he loved her, but most of all he was scared she would run from
his arms, his life, and leave him feeling hollow and alone without her
once again.
There's a light
There's the sun
Taking all the shattered ones
To the place we belong
And his love will conquer
He knew he had to do something, they couldn’t keep going on like this.
One day she would meet someone she would want to get married and he
couldn’t let that happen. not unless it was to him. He loved her to
much too powerfully to lose her to someone else.
And I've lost who I am
And I can't understand
Why my heart is so broken
Rejecting your love
Without love gone wrong
Life
Less words
Carry on
Buffy couldn’t help but wonder what he was thinking, she had been
looking at him for a second now and she could see the inner conflict on
his face.
But I know
All I know
Is that the ends beginning
Spike knew this was it; he had made his decision, he was going to
finally tell Buffy Summers exactly how he felt for her, kiss her. Would
she push him away? Laugh at his words? Or would she tell him she loved
him too? God how he hoped it was the last one.
Who I am from the start
Take me home to my heart
Let me go
And I will run
I will not be silenced
Taking a much needed deep breath Spike prepared himself for what was to
come no matter how this panned out, he knew he was doing the right
thing.
“Buffy luv… I need to tell you something” he said looking into her eyes, she smiled sweetly at him.
“What is it Spike?”
All this time spent in vain
Wasted years
Wasted gain
All is lost
Hope remains
And this war's not over
Spike was stuck, he was about to profess his love for her when the
words seemed to get caught in his throat his mouth opened and closed
but still the word refused to come out so instead he slowly leaned in
and kissed her.
There's a light
There's the sun
Taking all the shattered ones
To the place we belong
And his love will conquer all
Yes his love will conquer all
Their kiss was soft and gentle, much like the song they were still
swaying too. His left hand ran through her golden locks and his right
wrapped around her waist pulling her against him. He felt her arms wrap
around his neck as she moaned into his mouth when their tongues brushed
against each other.
Spike put everything he felt for her into the one single kiss, hoping
she would understand what he was trying to tell her but suddenly she
pulled away from him gasping for air. Her cheeks were flushed and her
lips were red from their kiss. She brought her hand to her mouth almost
in shock before she turned fleeing the convention room.
Yesterday I died, tomorrows bleeding
Fall into your sunlight
He sighed almost defeated when he felt courage flow through him
No not this time
he thought as he chased after her. He burst out the door seeing her
heading for her car, he caught up with her just as she was reaching for
the door handle.
“Buffy we have to talk?” he said turning her to face him.
“About what?” she whispered looking down at the keys in her hand.
“Come on luv, don’t play daft, you’re not good at it.” She smiled at this looking into his eyes.
“What do you want me to say Spike?”
“Did that kiss in there mean anything to you?” She looked scared like a
deer in headlights and he knew then that she was just as scared as he
was.
“Because it meant everything to me Summers… You're all I bloody think
about; dream about. You're in my gut; my throat, I'm drownin’ in you
Buffy, I'm drownin’ in you,” he confessed, she look shocked but at the
same time relieved.
“It meant everything to me too, not just the kiss but when you were
holding me, dancing with me, I felt…” she whispered unsure of how to
continue.
“Were you there with me?” he asked stunned.
“I was,” he smiled, overjoyed and thankful that he had finally built up
the courage to say something. He leaned down to kiss her, pressing his
lips on hers gently; they only kissed for a moment nether moving to
deepen it just simple, enjoying the feel of one another; pulling back
he couldn’t help but notice how adorable she looked as she looked over
at him shyly blushing.
That was the Buffy he remembered, the girl he had grown up with.
“Have dinner with me tomorrow night,” her head shot up at this, “So we
can really talk about us properly,” she smiled wickedly, leaning into
him.
“William Giles are you asking me out on a date?” she smiled up at him innocently.
And this was the Buffy that had come back to Sunnydale, how he loved them both.
“I am. There is a little French restaurant near the Bronze, its Sunnydale’s best kept secret”
“Okay where will I meet you?”
“It’s a date, luv, I’ll pick you up at 7pm.”
“Okay,” she nodded. After Buffy had returned to the reception she had
quickly said good bye to Faith and Riley wanting to head home. After a
hot shower she hopped into bed sighing happier, she had a date tomorrow
night with the man she loved.
Life was perfect.
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